She's made many sacrifices that upon thinking about, choke me up because I realize I don't know if I'd truly have the courage or strength to pull through the way she has.
I love my mother and I gladly call her my friend.
That being said, I'm two weeks away from my big Europe trip and that much closer to being back in Boise to spend time with my family and friends. Destination?
Ireland
England
Netherlands
Germany
Greece
Italy
SpainI'm also two weeks away from being finished with my job. I have been amazed at how wonderful it's been to work here; however, a few weeks ago I experienced frustration that has been somewhat of a challenge to deal with. The challenge has been a learning experience and overall positive, but I will be glad to move on to the next chapter, but will greatly miss many of my dear students.
I feel like maybe this challenge has a lot to do with what Mr. Oswald Chambers has put really well:
"Now He commands me to show the same love to others by saying, ". . . love one another as I have loved you" ( John 15:12 ). He is saying, "I will bring a number of people around you whom you cannot respect, but you must exhibit My love to them, just as I have exhibited it to you." This kind of love is not a patronizing love for the unlovable— it is His love, and it will not be evidenced in us overnight. Some of us may have tried to force it, but we were soon tired and frustrated."
I am sorry for the love that has not been true or genuine and am challenged by the reminder that God's love will not continue to grow in me unless it is nurtured.
What an amazing Lord I serve that deals with me in such a gracious way regardless of my faults, failures and insecurities.
Praying for authentic love,
- J.
2 comments:
For what it's worth, I realized recently the LACK of love I have towards people here. The Devil is good at using the tiniest little things as an opportunity to plant seeds of bitterness, superiority, and discontent.
Thanks for the reminder, for WHO AM I? I claim to be a conduit of God's AMAZING love, but I sure haven't been doing a very good job.
On the other hand, your trip looks amazing and you will be missed from this place, I am SURE!
are you really going to all those places? So what is the next chapter that you were talking about? Are you done teaching? I know how you feel about the whole love thing. I've been through it with Eric and with a certain someone at my work, but after a LOT of prayer I'm able to find the love for both of them! God is amazing! Have a great week!
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